Just finished reading the book Through My Eyes by Tim Tebow and Nathan Whitaker. I am impressed by both the great faith and great determination of Tim Tebow in all that he does as revealed through this book and his personal testimony.
This biography covers his life from childhood through his football and faith exploits in high school, as a Florida Gator and finally in his first year as a NFL quarterback for the Denver Broncos. I highly recommend it … especially for the football player or fan walking in the midst of a life of faith.
As I finished reading the book on Wednesday, I came across these two inspiring and thought provoking paragraphs.
“I dealt with the uncertainty the way I’ve always tried to: I don’t know what the future holds, but I know who holds my future. That’s what gives me hope and peace and is what I lean on, because each day is going to have enough trouble of its own. That’s why we don’t need to look to tomorrow; we need to worry about today and look to Him as He guides and directs our day. What can we do today that will have eternal consequences not only then but now; how can we affect people in a positive way today; what are the right decisions we can make today? I know no matter what happens, there’s a plan for it, and even though we don’t always understand it all and why things happen the way they do, I know that one day it will all make sense as part of God’s eternal plan for all our lives. Even if it doesn’t turn out the way I hope, it will be disappointing but I’ll be all right, because God never stops loving me, or you. And God will use every one of those things – some which may seem good and some bad to you at the time – in His overall plan for your life and mine.”
“Just because something bad happens doesn’t mean that He stopped caring about you or that He stopped being sovereign. Those things are simply part of His plan that we’ll never understand here on earth, like trying to understand the Trinity – the truth of God’s existing in three persons: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I’m just never going to fully understand it. That’s where faith comes in. It’s not knowing about tomorrow, but it’s knowing that I have a God who loves me and is going to keep me in His plans and safe in His hands through those coming days without my even knowing what’s going to happen. It gives me great comfort to know that God is not only with me and carrying me when I need to be carried but, already waiting for me in my tomorrow. Now what is there for me to worry about with God already there to care and lay out the plan for me?”
The timing of reading these words couldn’t have been any better …
I had just returned from the oncologist where once again my platelet counts were too low to receive chemotherapy … and I was feeling very frustrated and out of control. Number one there is a real mental preparation that goes into getting psyched up for what you’re about to go through with chemotherapy. Number two you end up scheduling both work and personal activities around the chemo schedule.
When chemo doesn’t go as scheduled … you feel even more out of control than you already feel as a cancer warrior most of the time …
And Tim Tebow’s words above reminded me of a number of aspects of faith that I have held so tightly, so close and so dear in the first 15-16 months of my chemotherapy that I seem to be letting slip from my grasp over the last few months … I seem to be slipping from the rock and into the surrounding sand. The Lord is holding me tightly but my hold is not quite as reciprocal.
Thank you Lord for bringing me to these inspiring words written by one of your faithful servants!
Help me to relinquish the need for control I have developed and increase my trust, my faith IN You for all my circumstances – both today and tomorrow.