chemo and the battle for sleep

Well, it’s around 2:30 Wednesday morning and I’ve already been good and awake for an hour.  For me … one of the time-delayed side effects of chemo.

I say time-delayed because it’s been a week since I began my last chemo treatment and five days since the treatment ended with the removal of my infusion pump … yet after two short hours of sleep here I am wide awake for the third morning in a row.  And I probably have one or two more nights like this ahead of me this week … then like clockwork it will go to the other extreme with me finding it difficult of get out of bed before 9am.

Anybody out there dealing/or having dealt with cancer and chemo experience this sleep deprivation problem?

It usually doesn’t take long for me to realize I might as well get up for a couple of hours until I become drowsy again.  I usually fill those hours with reading and writing … some of my best blog entries are written in the middle of the night.

Sometimes I can’t help but wonder if Jesus is waking me up because that’s the only time He can get my undivided attention … and we really do have some good conversations in the wee hours of these mornings.  From that regard perhaps its more blessing than side effect …

After all Scripture does teach that we will find rest for our souls IN Jesus.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.  Matthew 11:28-30 (ESV)

What other passages of Scripture come to mind regarding sleep and rest?

What are some of your success secrets for getting a good night of sleep?

Would love to hear from you …

BTW … on the bright side, other than this side effect I had a super quick recovery from this last chemo treatment … thank you Lord for carrying me through chemo once again!

Sleepless in Georgia …


About bwebbjr

A grandfather, father, husband, man, and a child of God who is following Christ Jesus and working out his salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who is at work IN me, both to will and to work for His good pleasure (Philippians 2:12-13). I dodged my first bullet with cancer when a cancerous polyp was removed in a sigmoid colectomy surgery in August 2007. Four years later, in the midst of a second colectomy surgery we discovered I had Stage IV metastatic colon cancer. Rather than colectomy surgery I had colostomy surgery, which now means the colostomy bag is a part of my everyday life ... with the emphasis on life. God has given us a peace beyond understanding as my wife and I have traveled this journey. By the grace of God I am blessed to be a 6 plus year cancer survivor aka warrior. In writing, I am often wrestling with my own personal struggles and beliefs and in the midst God leads me to a lesson He wants me to learn ... or sometimes He simply touches me in the revelation of Himself. My hope is that the result you see here might touch your heart and glorify God. And let me be clear ... I am not the only one with something to say. Please join in the conversation sharing your faith, your cancer experiences, etc. I would love to hear from you. Bernie
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2 Responses to chemo and the battle for sleep

  1. savedbygrace says:

    the most painful days of my life I remember was when in my child years I had monthly injections. that occurred 3-4 yrs. painful, but then the trauma is more damaging. I have a heart disease back then. it didn’t went away and I have to carry that to my adulthood.

    now the heart disease is gone, no one prayed, i even forgot about that disease. but one thing I did and acknowledge. I partake communion almost everyday.

    reading about your chemo and being sleepless makes me sad 😦
    so i am sharing you a bit of my testimony.

    I have no idea what are you going through my brother, but look unto Jesus your savior,. not just your healing, but He Himself is healing. He gave His life for you, not only for you to enter into God’s kingdom, but to experience Healing when you are sick, supply when in lack.

    as Paul said

    “For ANYONE who eats and drinks RECOGNIZING the body of the Lord does not eat and drink judgment on himself.

    That is why many among you are STRONG and HEALTHY, and AWAKE.”
    – 1 Corinthians 11:29-30

    – grace and peace

    • bwebbjr says:

      Thanks so much for sharing your testimony, your experiences and the encouraging Scriptures. I have been battling this stage of cancer for 15 months now with bi-weekly chemo treatments and my hope, my trust is in the Christ Jesus … He has been so good and ever-faithful and the vast majority of the time I feel better and stronger than any person with Stage IV cancer has a right to feel … ALL praise, honor and glory to God! But sometimes the side effects serve much the same purpose as the waves and wind did when Peter stepped out of the boat to walk on water and I begin to sink … only to be reminded once again to cry out to the Lord to save me.

      Thanks for your love and encouragement … it helps in ways beyond description!


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