getting back on the chemo-go-round

After a three week break from chemo treatments, on Wednesday I jumped back on the chemo-go-round.  This marked chemo treatment #26 … 16 of them maintenance treatments.  And no doubt as the ‘Footprints’ poem suggest Jesus has carried me through each and every single one …

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints. 
Other times there were one set of footprints. 
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life 
When I was suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat, 
I could see only one set of footprints. 
So I said to the Lord, “You promised me, Lord, 
That if I followed you, you would walk with me always. 
But I noticed that during the most trying periods of my life 
There have only been one set of prints in the sand. 
Why, When I have needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied, 
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints 
Is when I carried you.”

Continue to wrestle with the drug shortage on Leucovorin … it was not available today.  But I count my blessings … after 22 treatments where that drug was never available, it has been available 2 of the last 4 treatments.

My better half was unable to go with me today as she is struggling with a cold and a cough … so my son-in-law-to-be Jamey spent 3 hours visiting with me … we had a great time getting to know each other … look forward to him being added to the family … I have no doubt he will be a great husband for my daughter and a great father for my two little granddaughters … thank you Lord!

The final part of my chemo ritual before heading home to an afternoon in my recliner is a stop at the new Dunkin’ Donuts they opened just a few blocks from my oncologist.  Today I partook of a large pumpkin-white chocolate iced coffee along with a Boston Creme donut – a ritual I am likely to repeat when they remove my infusion pump Friday morning.  Although I have to say the red velvet cake donuts and munchkins caught my eyes and tempted my taste buds as I was leaving today …

In the midst of all this, life is so good Lord … thank you!



About bwebbjr

A grandfather, father, husband, man, and a child of God who is following Christ Jesus and working out his salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who is at work IN me, both to will and to work for His good pleasure (Philippians 2:12-13). I dodged my first bullet with cancer when a cancerous polyp was removed in a sigmoid colectomy surgery in August 2007. Four years later, in the midst of a second colectomy surgery we discovered I had Stage IV metastatic colon cancer. Rather than colectomy surgery I had colostomy surgery, which now means the colostomy bag is a part of my everyday life ... with the emphasis on life. God has given us a peace beyond understanding as my wife and I have traveled this journey. By the grace of God I am blessed to be a 6 plus year cancer survivor aka warrior. In writing, I am often wrestling with my own personal struggles and beliefs and in the midst God leads me to a lesson He wants me to learn ... or sometimes He simply touches me in the revelation of Himself. My hope is that the result you see here might touch your heart and glorify God. And let me be clear ... I am not the only one with something to say. Please join in the conversation sharing your faith, your cancer experiences, etc. I would love to hear from you. Bernie
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