I will NOT be a closet cancer victim!

Some folks wonder why I am so open in my writing about my cancer and the ups and downs …

I will NOT retreat to the closet and its darkness and death.  Outside of the closet is light and life and I want to fully live every minute that God has written in His book.

I am NOT a cancer victim … I am a cancer survivor … a cancer warrior.  I have difficulty believing that children of God are ever victims … that certainly does not mean we live without suffering.

Note Jesus’ words from the garden on the eve of His arrest, His trial, His beatings and His crucifixion: “Abba, Father, all things are possible for you. Remove this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.” Note how Jesus affectionately called his Father Daddy in the midst of all this …

Suddenly cancer seems like such a small thing … and Abba Father seems so big.

i share both the good and the bad because if I only share the good, it over inflates me … not only to you but to myself as well.  As Galatians 5:26 says, “Let us not become conceited …” and in 2 Timothy 3:4 Paul warns of becoming “swollen with conceit”.

And I truly believe there is encouragement in both the good and the bad of my journey through cancer.  Encouragement comes in many forms …

  • From personal experience, I know that great comfort comes in the midst of trials and tribulations when you realize, “I’m not the only one going through such trials and tribulations.”
  • Look … there is someone going through the same problems … and they are not giving up … they are coping … they are making their way through it.
  • People who have already experienced what I’m going through … they offer encouragement and advice … their insights are invaluable.
  • Finally, but of first importance, I am privileged to share my testimony of how Jesus is loving me, inspiring me and carrying me through this journey.

For God has not destined us for wrath, but to obtain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us so that whether we are awake or asleep we might live with him. Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing. 1 Thessalonians 5:9-10 (ESV)

Thank you Lord!


About bwebbjr

A grandfather, father, husband, man, and a child of God who is following Christ Jesus and working out his salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who is at work IN me, both to will and to work for His good pleasure (Philippians 2:12-13). I dodged my first bullet with cancer when a cancerous polyp was removed in a sigmoid colectomy surgery in August 2007. Four years later, in the midst of a second colectomy surgery we discovered I had Stage IV metastatic colon cancer. Rather than colectomy surgery I had colostomy surgery, which now means the colostomy bag is a part of my everyday life ... with the emphasis on life. God has given us a peace beyond understanding as my wife and I have traveled this journey. By the grace of God I am blessed to be a 6 plus year cancer survivor aka warrior. In writing, I am often wrestling with my own personal struggles and beliefs and in the midst God leads me to a lesson He wants me to learn ... or sometimes He simply touches me in the revelation of Himself. My hope is that the result you see here might touch your heart and glorify God. And let me be clear ... I am not the only one with something to say. Please join in the conversation sharing your faith, your cancer experiences, etc. I would love to hear from you. Bernie
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